I have so many plans, so many thoughts, ideas, places I want to go to things I want to do. And very often when plans/things don’t work out I feel bummed and sucky. Very often I forget that I can’t control everything; circumstances, personality, attitude, character, behaviour, condition, mentality, opportunity, surprises; everything. For example, having IncompetentColleague, for a colleague.

Ok, seriously, the last couple of months have been very challenging for me. I came to a point to examine myself to see if I was the cause of my anxiety; i.e. if I have changed. Possibly, I thought, being in a new chapter of my life as a wife, daughter-in-law and sister-in-law. And because of this status “upgrade”, suddenly all the circumstances, personality, attitude, character, behaviour, condition, mentality, opportunity, surprises are evaluated differently.

This new chapter had more responsibility, having to engage considerations from various parties, and at the end of it, keeping everyone/everything involved happy. But sometimes, you just can’t have everything your way and things will not go they way you intended it to. In Proverbs 19:21 “Many are the plans in a man’s heart, but it is the LORD’s purpose that prevails” reminds me that no matter what plans and wants you have, we must remember that we’re not in control; He is.

In essence, we should never get lost in wanting everything to be perfect. Let life go, with the flow.